Today is my second Mother’s Day that I get to be celebrated as a mama. I grew up celebrating this day and all the special women in my life. Moms are the hardest working people on the planet. Whether you’re a stay at home mom or a full-time working mom, you bust your hind-end to serve those littles and your spouse, leaving very little time for yourself. Today is the day that you should feel honored and get served, instead of doing the serving.
These past few months have been the hardest I’ve ever walked through. I’m now on the other side and can hopefully be a beacon of hope for any mamas that experience any form of postpartum depression and/or anxiety. My prayer is that God uses my story to help other women from around the world, by letting them know that they are not alone in what they’re feeling and there is hope. That you WILL be yourself again. You will feel like yourself again. This is my story, and I know so many others story as well.
Through the past almost year and a half of motherhood, there have been so many lessons. So many times when I thought to myself, my mom was right about that or Mawmaw was right about this. You grow up listening to your mom and grandmas saying things that you think will never apply to you, then all of a sudden, you’re getting smacked in the face with that very truth you rolled your eyes at as a kid.
Some lessons that little Miss MacKenlee has taught me…
- Patience, but to a whole new level. And I know this is only the beginning, lol.
- Love, unlike any love I’ve ever felt before. I look in that little face of hers and my heart wants to explode with love for those big blue eyes staring back at me.
- Creativity. Learning ways to keep her entertained, happy or even eating when what always works, isn’t working anymore.
- Compassion. I’ve always been a caregiver. It’s my very nature. There is no worse feeling in the world than seeing your child in pain and not being able to do anything about it.
- Pride. I’ve been proud of the work I’ve accomplished, of my husband and so much more in my life. But nothing compares to the pride you feel when your baby has a milestone moment. Those first steps? Holy proud mama, right here!
There is so much more than just these few lessons I’ve learned, but there’s one lesson in particular that I’ve had to learn. And boy, I learned it the hard way. That lesson? It’s grace. Grace for myself. Learning that it’s not possible to do it all, or even everything I used to do before baby… And that’s ok. It’s okay to mess up. It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to not get everything on my to-do list done. It’s OKAY to do my best and my best IS good enough.
Congratulations Tina Culver!